Pursuit of Life!!!

“I dream of a company with whom I wish I could sleep out at the terrace watching the stars while the whole world sleeps beneath us”.

Nothing can be more soothing to the ear than the very sound of life. My all time favourite destination would be my life not just because of the reason that who I’m today but because of the experience I gained and the people I met on this journey. Memories are the strongest survivors; it can be alive even in the closed heart and mind. When god created humans he did the packaging with bundles of emotions. And as emotions is a baggage of expectations, every feeling hold a special value. It’s just how well you present and is the person worth it on whom you plan to invest. Else it just ends up with disappointment and regret. I recently met a person and when she shared her struggle I felt a painful tightening in the chest as if I was being squeezed by the ugly memory of the past.

Life has its unique style of treating you sometimes it simply puts you off on a back seat window to gaze the life around you. This girl came to this country few years back with her bag full of dreams but suddenly six months later she found herself in the hospital around the doctors performing all kinds of test. She was asked to provide the name and number of a family member who currently reside in America. Fortunately she had one of her relative which was called immediately and was informed that she has stomach cancer third stage (stage 3B) which had spread from ovaries up to some gland called peritoneum (lining of the abdominal cavity). She has been very week throughout and on to it now she had to go through rigorous chemotherapy. Fighting with your loved ones is any day better than their silence. Believe me there’s no worst experience of pain then watching your kid dying in front of your eyes every day. They are the ones who carry us in their arms for years. Go through all the embarrassment, torture, and sacrifice.

Death is just a final destiny of every human life which is inevitable and need to be faced by one and all but then why are we scared? Sometimes people die due to silliest reasons like slipping in the bathroom can prove fatal or even a road accident where you need not even be involved to get killed. Then why are we so scared just of the feeling of getting hurt. But if we all reflect to our life aren’t we already hurting ourselves by not doing what we actually want in life by living a life for people around you when you don’t even want to be a part of it, haven’t we already killed ourselves. We die every moment we procrastinate our dreams; the moment we compromise in our life; the constant struggle of adjustment in a relation where no emotion is alive and people live with them under the same roof but simply with the memories of past. So in a true sense we are surrounded with all dead people who claim to be alive.   

She often questioned herself whether she would ever live a normal life; will she be able to meet her friends. After two months of treatment one day while she was waiting for the doctor in the hallway she looked outside the window and watched the sunset it felt as if the earth was being painted every couple of minutes in different shades. Tic-Tac’s her heart jumped at the sound. She turned around to see the boy holding out a container of orange Tic-Tac’s, waiting for her response. The girl replied try to think straight “Thanks” she hold out her hand and he drops a couple in the palm.

The girl asked “Does this line usually work?”

The boy replied “No, actually, it normally has the opposite effect” he smiles.

Leaning back the boy asked how long you have been here

Girl responded I guess you have an experience on the matter.

The boy replied just three years worth, the boy responded as if it’s no big deal.

The boy asked “what are you waiting for?”

The girl replied my blood test results doctors are going to tell me if I’ll live until I’m old or if I’m going to die in three months.

Boy asked so did you start the bucket list

Girl replied it’s the last thing I expected to hear.

Then suddenly he said then you go out on a date with me it’s half question and half suggestion. The girls was confused she said “why would you want that”

Boy replied “why wouldn’t I?”

Girl said “because I might be dead in three months. Doesn’t that matter?”

Boy shakes his head and actually smiles and says “I don’t care, “his voice slightly croaking.

Girl said “you must care. What if I die?”

Boy immediately responded then I’ll spend every day with you until you do. I’ve never met anyone like you, and I feel if I don’t see more of you, that I’ll be missing something. Give me a chance”

There’s only one word she could possibly give him “Yes”

She was no longer scared of death. She thought “If I die or don’t die, it’ll all end the same way, but at least I know someone will give me a chance either way”. She was not afraid as she was no longer alone.

If you are scared of getting wet you can never enjoy the rain to enjoy life at times you need to take risk how can you feel fast wind when you don’t dare to ride a fast bike. It just adds the wings of freedom a sense of independence. A dog never measures you on the scale of your looks and money. They don’t care whether you are smart or dull, clever or dumb, beautiful or ugly. Give him your heart and he’ll give you his. Humans have lost the ability to win heart as they are so engrossed in achieving their targets. Has any person in your life made you feel rare, pure, extra ordinary and special?  
“Every trade has an expiration tag so is love so never blame a person for the way he treated you as you opted for the pain in exchange of your heart”.